Cheers to 17 days.
I dont think anyone comes here. Even if there was. You'd probably gotten sick of waiting so long of a post that you decided not to bother.Just needed somewhere to pen down my thoughts.
Its been a crazy period. I don't know how I might look back in time and feel about this year in my life. I don't even know how to feel about it right now.
But there are now these three subjects: V, M and A. (I hope i'll remember what these stand for at least.)
To M: You bring me the most hope. I might say you are 'the one'. But I am not ready for you yet. You were supposed to appear years later. After I was tired and worn out. You would be the one who would pick me up and tell me its okay. I'm sorry if I seem to be unfair. But this is how I feel today. I hope I feel different tomorrow so that we don't risk you getting hurt.
To V: You bring me the most joy. I was crazy about you. Never knew if you felt as crazy towards you but 5 days ago I thought I did - you did. But now we're down and I don't even feel like I want things to move upwards anymore. I guess we're both tired of each other, tired of having to try and tired of failing. A part of me still hopes that we find hope and love. And I will give you the shot you asked for.
To A: You bring be the most love. You really set the standard in terms of being in love. But love is not all. Don't know if you will ever understand that. Maybe it is better that you don't. I wish you well most of all, wish that you one day find love again.
17 may be wonderful.
posted by Sarah @ 10:36 AM
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