Honest
Today I shall be honest.
I am honestly scared.
I am fearful about my future.
I'm honestly afraid of loneliness.
I'm honestly not as strong as people might think I am.
I am quite fragile. So world, stop trying to test how breakable I am.
I am honestly tired.
I'm tired of people having perceptions about me that are not quite true.
I am honestly hurt.
I am hurt by people who are not so nice. Worse when I am nice to them.
I really don't know whats going on sometimes.
But I really don't want to ask.
I honestly believe that things are going to alrite.
Though I sometimes doubt it. I still do believe.
I honestly think that if I get too honest, no one will like it.
I honestly think no one should ever be truly madly deeply honest.
Because no one wants to know you, or listen to you. They just want to listen (not TO you but THEY wanna listen).
So lets all continue being liars. Lets just keep hiding ourselves from the world.
They like us that way.
Take my advise. OK?
jail for ra
DID YOU KNOW...
In Singapore, you can be sent TO JAIL for illegal downloading?! But...
DO YOU ACTUALLY GIVE A DAMN?!I swear it strikes me when I am happily clicking away downloading my next movie fix and the radio annouces that Singapore is stepping up on catching downloading pirates. Good job radio people! Ya'll quite effective la!
Still... They either make movies, VCDs, DVDs or rentals cheaper if they want people to stop downloading stuff. Its simple logic isn't it? But no... They raise the prices at cinemas and still want to clamp down on us victims. Obviously driving me into a corner right?
ARGH doomed. I'm no longer a child. I'll seriously be sent to jail.
BOOO to Indonesia
I'm very angry at Indonesia today.
They are so damn helpless when it comes to disasters. I know I might sound slightly evil and heartless but they really need to learn to deal with their problems man. And whats wrong with the world and fate? Every damn disaster happens to them. Like HELLO BIG MAN have u not yet realised that they are the most useless bunch of ppl that cannot handle anything u hit them with. The freaking negative externalities are hitting a poor little girl right here in Marine Parade!!
Indonesia is so hell a demerit good.
(SMB = 0 SMC = INFINITE)
I can't breath nor see properly la. Its so damn depressing to look out of the window and not see the next building in broad daylight. I guess its like that all year long in Indonesia so they dont give a shit. But this little girl is also very used to seeing the trees and the flowers and the buildings around her!!
Very angry. HMPH.
So yesterday
So everyone started blogging bout how they're sad to leave sch though the hate it to some extent.
Yeah there has been the good times. And then there were the life lessons I'd never forget.
These 2 years have moulded me even more. If one day I succeed, I'll look back and I would never say these years were a waste. I know for sure whatever I go on to do would be a result of expriences in JC.
But life is not about yesterdays or 'the last 2 years'. Its about todays and tommorows and the next 2 years to come. I teared yesterday not because I didn't wanna leave, but cos I knew I was going somewhere else. Its nice to know that even as we now we go on studying for exams and soon emerge into the world that there are people behind us, supporting us, telling us we can go on.
Here we are now, entertain us.
So here goes. Something new eh?
Well I decided to shift my blog to kinda signify something new. A new phase of life and a new me. Yes it does sound slightly (ok more than slightly) cliche, but turning 18 and being at the crossroads of my life (yes still on cliche) is some bloody-hell important to me.
Currently Unwritten. (its a song title by a friend's band btw)
So today I graduated from Junior College. Tommorow I'll be waking up someone new. Not anymore a student, but a mere candidate at the upcoming A level exams. Soon after that, I'll be just one of those post-A-level part time workers and soon enough I'll blend into what half the boring world is - the working class.
The point is, my life is currently unwritten. But from now, I'll be writting my own story each and everyday. Each act, each scene will be played out in life and will be scribbled down right here on this blog.
I really don't know what might happen here. But I'm pretty excited to find out.
