M18

Solitares the only game in town.

I finally understand why people choose to live in solitude. Its so much more peaceful this way.

Yet its all self-deception la. At the end of the day, when all the exams are over, I know I'll have to start facing people all over again. But it'll be different this time. No more i-hate-you-but-i-so-have-to-act-like-i-love-your-bullshit people. Ra has learnt la.

I just hope the people that I wanna see are still around la.

But theres always family. I understand it more and more.

When I was a kid, being the only-child always made me feel like I never needed family cos there was never anyone around anyway. But thats not true. Theres always kuku and theres always grandma. Everyone else is around sometimes but home is the place where I really feel most wanted and most appreciated.

See if I'd ever let people into this world of mine. People judge. They'd go "she's turning into a loser". But no. I'm no loser. You'd know that if you knew me at all. Nah, but they aren't interested in knowing me. All they wanna do is get above me.

Oh baby baby its a wild world.

posted by Sarah @ 10:40 PM